Working out, working out

Hey! Luckily i didnt abandon this blog again.. Lol..
Well.. Today im just gonna tell about... Well work out. Like the title says..
I've been goin to the gym for almost 2 months now.. I've been training my abs n chest for quite a while.. Actually i've started goin to the gym since last semester, but only for a month.. Then i stopped.. Cause i was busy last semester.. So after being absent for 4 months.. I started to go to the gym again this semester.. I started it since the 4th of september.. Been doin it routinely, and avoid fast food.. But well.. Got no obvious changes yet. Well, i do feel changes in my strength, but no physical appearance changes yet.. Now i do sit up while holding a 7.5kg dumbell.. And i can do a 15kilo chest training for 4 full sets.. Also i can do bench press on my own now.. Though not the real heavy one, but yeah.. Definitely got some increase in strength. But i really want to see some physical changes, like just a tiny bit of abs? It can motivates me! But, it's really hard.. Cause it's not bout the strength.. There are techniques to produce some muscles.. Even if u get really strong, it doesnt necessarily means that u will have obvious muscles. Cause there are ways to make it appear.. Like nutrition, fats and etc.. Even if you have nice muscles, you wont be able to see it with a layer of fats covering it. So i've beeb doin cardio and controlling what i eat, and also the amount.. But then, i read that to produce muscles, you need quite a large amount of calories as well, cause without calories, your body wont be able to produce those muscles and also you'll need proteins. Lotsa.. Since im not the fat type, my calorie intake does not exceed my daily limit. And the net says that to produce muscles, i'll need more calories.. Because originally, for people that are working out, they eat for 4-5 times a day, to get the calorie, protein and to maintain their metabolism.. But the problem is i got a bit of fats on my belly, so i really had no god damn idea which method should i go for. Increase calorie intake or reduce it to burn fats.. But in the net, it says that by eating 4-5 times of small portions, you actually speed up ur metabolism, so it helps you maintain a good figure.. That is if you eat proper aka healthy food.. Not fast food and deep fried food, but there actually also several types of food that must be avoided and food that you must eat.. Well eating 4-5 times a day is harder than it sounds.. First of all, money! Even if i eat small portions, they wont give you half price.. It will only be cheaper for a lil bit.. And eating 4-5 times? My budget is too tight.. Secondly, schedule! I go to college for god sake.. There's not much time for me to keep eating! Ckckckck.. It's so difficult.. Well there's a way that is a lil bit easier.. By taking supplement.. But body building supplements are too expensive! Sigh.. So what im doin now is just keep on working out, it's good for my health anw.. What some peoples say are right, do not just aim for the result.. Change ur mindset, and make it part of your lifestyle.. So you wont feel that it's troublesome.. I really hope that i can maintain it, but what i worry is when i got back to batam.. I dont have my own transportation there. So it's hard to be able to go to the gym.. I'll ask andi or rubby to go to the gym together, but they've quit since last year.. Sigh, well let's see..

That's all.. Nite!